12/31/2012 - 147

2013 has been my second fattest year. My worst was 2002 when I got up to almost 160. So gross.

I've been reading and talking with some people about this Paleo lifestyle and man.. I'm scared. More scared than I've been to do anything in my life.

I fail at everything I do.  Diets.  Resolutions.  Promises.  Goals.

You name it, I've failed doing it.  Or keeping it.  Or following through with it.

I don't want to be sitting here on December 31st, 2013 and be fatter, more miserable and even less healthy than I am now.  I'm sick of looking at old pictures of myself and feeling so sad.

25 pounds in 2 years.  In TWO YEARS!  That is ridiculous!!!

Today I've had 2 Sierra Mist's, 6 mozzarella sticks, way too many pita chips and half a container of hummus.  I feel sick to my stomach.  I feel like I'm dragging and that I should just crawl in bed and go to sleep.

I know that if I stay away from processed CRAP I will feel better.  I'll have more energy.  I'll WANT to go to the gym.  I remember 2 years ago feeling SO good!  So happy and energized.

Here we go:

-Weigh in EVERY single day to be sure I'm on track.
-Stick with Paleo and no meat.
-Workout 3 times a week once I get energy back.

Goal:

-Weigh in at 139 by February 1st.
-Start gym by February 1st.

EDITED:

Woot woot!  Just downloaded the guide for the 21 Day Sugar Detox.  Now THIS I can get on board with!  I start tomorrow and will go for 21 days to get off sugar.  This should help me ease into eating Paleo eventually.  Perhaps I'll stick with no sugar/flour only while I'm a vegetarian.  And then when I start meat again I will go full Paleo.

Here's hoping!  I have 2 hours left to eat what I want.. off I go on a bender!

12/28/2012 - ?

4 months later.

Still around the same weight.  Still miserable with my health/weight/eating.

I guess I'm one of those people who need to just start on a starting date.  January 1st.  I'm going to do it.  I have to do it.  I need to do it.  I WANT to DO IT!

As of January 1, 2013 I plan on:

- Eating semi-Paleo
- Staying far away from fast-food
- Developing self-control & will power
- Creating a strict household budget
- Creating and sticking to a cleaning schedule
- Working out 3 times a week
- Blog every day
- Update project365 every day

This is by far the hardest and most extensive list of resolutions I've ever done.  Right now I have so much hope that I'll do it.  I hope and pray that I can stick to them.  Really stick to them and enjoy it.  Otherwise, I'm sunk.