That's not asking too much.. is it?
I started going to the gym in May. Took 2 classes a week and got on the treadmill every few days. Nothing hard core. Apparently my body needs hard core. Not only have I lost ZERO weight, I feel fatter than every before! I know it's my diet. Considering I just had this for lunch..
2 fatty and greasy breadsticks from Little Caesers. Oy Nicole. Simply OY. I ate this all the while trying on my entire closet and putting a crap load of clothes 'away'. They are in a bin and cannot be touched or tried on until I get to at least 125. There is just no point. The sad part is.. I remember wearing most of those clothes 2 years ago. :whimper:
The clothing.. shirts on top and pants and shorts inside the bin. It's just so sad..
And of course the shirts mean I have extra hangers.. lots and LOTS of extra hangers..
Those hangers should be filled with clothing. Clothing that FITS me!! And I refuse to buy more stinking clothing just to **HOPEFULLY** lose weight and not wear them again.
I've given myself until next May 1st. I'm currently 145 and would like to lost 25 pounds. That's not a hard goal, I know that. But then I think about how much self control and willpower I'm going to need. Honestly and truly only God can help me with that. I don't have it in me, and won't pretend that I do. For example.. I made these Oreo cheesecake bites yesterday for a get together with friends and still have a huge plate full. I will ABSOLUTELY be praying that I don't get tempted to eat even one.
They are just amazing. Fabulous. YUMMY. But no. Can't have one. Because with me it always leads to another one and another one and then it's 'well, this day is shot so go pig out on chips and cookies'. Sigh.. if only I had the willpower of an adult and not of a 4 year old.
Lastly, I got a Ninja for my birthday (last month, turned 32.. ouch!). I love this thing. I've made a bunch of different smoothies and today I'm enjoying a Raspberry, Mango, Strawberry, Yogurt and Coconut Oil smoothie..
I just got the Coconut Oil yesterday from a friend.. she buys hers through a co-op so I asked her to get me a jar. It smells heavenly! I'm going to make a sugar scrub with it at some point. I also need to look up other ways to use it. Apparently I can use it in place of EVOO.. which is blasphemy to me! I love me some olive oil!
Exercise today:
1 hour class of interval training
Swimming laps later tonight.. ETA: due to a terrible storm we don't go to the Y. Did 15 minutes of cardio and a few intervals.
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